wash, rinse, repeat
I need to start by apologizing to the whole insect kingdom. I am sure that my car was the demise of a few thousand of your family members. No gas station car could BEGIN to touch my vehicle.
This past month our family did the customary summer family road trip to the Smoky Mountains. It was picturesque and everything our family needed; time, space and peace together. Our car did not fare as well.
Yesterday, I needed to embark on a deep clean. The soak, wash, rinse, repeat -THEN break out the kitchen scrubber and elbow grease. Wash, rinse, repeat. I would think the car was clean, only to see a spot that I missed.
wash, rinse, repeat
We have been home for almost two weeks and yet this project is just happening. Life is full and grand- the bugs could wait. The kids went back to school this week and my to-do list began. I have been tackling so many projects that have been staring at me all summer, but I have instead chosen to focus on the boys and the incredible summer that we had. Pillows have been fixed, cushions seem re-sewn, and the logs of our home scrubbed. Tasks that needed to be done, but were not the priority.
As I was in the process of wash, rinse, repeat; I began to think. What am I choosing to ignore for living in the current moment? And if I can put the tasks off for a few weeks or even in some cases months, does it need to be done? What is the value of my time and effort?
wash, rinse, repeat
I have spent more time THINKING about fixing that pillow than the time it took to actually FIX said pillow. The mental space and energy of thinking about these tasks is so heavy. Why do I care so much? I spend so much of my valuable life force creating work. Is it worth it?
I decided with my hands in a soapy bucket, it is important to care for the things we have. I choose to take care of, rather than replace. My care is kinder to the earth. The time it would take to work to pay for the replacement, as well as find said replacement would pull me from what I value most. I will mend, wash and scrub for it means longevity. My boys are young for a short window. I will be here to care and encourage their abundant life while also caring for me and our environment. When our home is cared for, we can feel at peace. I feel at peace. The task is completed, I receive a little dopamine hit of satisfaction that I completed a goal. It FEELS good.
So today; I will continue to wash, rinse, and repeat. Because, I know that the space that is created will foster health and vitality for all. In the value of worth, time and resources, I am caring for my home, my family and myself. That care is worth an extra repeat.
This Week’s A Door Within:
What have I chosen to ignore and why?
How am I spending my precious life force?
Does my mental energy equate to actions completed?
Can I eliminate some of that mental load for increased vitality?
Is what I do worth it?
♥ Ashley
