Out came the paint, newspaper and pallet.  I decided I wanted to use one brush and never stop moving.  I wanted a flow of connection just as the waves ebb. 

I wanted to be of the water.

I have spent more time THINKING about fixing that pillow than the time it took to actually FIX said pillow.  The mental space and energy of thinking about these tasks is so heavy.  Why do I care so much?  I spend so much of my valuable life force creating work.  Is it worth it?

When I started writing this I was thinking; ‘Next summer, I’ll do better!’.  Then I paused long enough to realize, NO!  There are still three weeks left of THIS summer.  I have ⅓ of our summer to do better.  

I am feeling the need for the women of my life.

I am wanting to connect with them on deep levels.

I am looking for the strings that seem small, but truly are what hold everything else together.

I am needing space to be freely me, with like minded souls.

n a world where many women do not feel the connection of other women, I have it.

How lucky am I?

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What a retreat this was; away from our children, partners, jobs, houses and everyday expectations. I was reminded of the power of feminine connection and retreating with likeminded women. I felt the power of what we can do together. I know we can move mountains.

We, as feminine beings need RESTORATION.

Within the next week or so, I will be introducing a new retreat that my personal retreat inspired! We need time and space.

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This morning, the boys and I pruned the tomato plants. If you have ever done ANYTHING with a child for the first time, you know that the first question is

“Why?”

I begin to explain to the boys, we need to remove the suckers (point out what a sucker is) and eliminate leaves.

Here is to your summer garden…

‘If I do a REALLY deep clean, leaving nothing else, then MAYBE I will get this tank to last an extra week or two.’

This made me think… What else in my life needs deeper attention?

little flowers- the moments that only a five year old can remind you to enjoy with your whole heart!

When women come together to retreat, they connect in honest and beautiful ways. Retreat offers a perspective that is different from normal events. This is not a yoga class, or workshop. This is a FULL day of deep personal connection to ourselves and others. I have found that often in our modern society, we do not have the opportunity to be fully present with other women.

I moved on, but six months ago, I was nervous and unsure- I slid back into what was comfortable and guaranteed.